Beautiful

I live in a beautiful state, Florida. Sometimes, I have to remember that my property.. does not experience the seasons like I do. I have experienced snow once in my life, and that was about 17 years ago.

I went for a walk yesterday, and this was my view...

It was calming and relaxing. The only thing missing? A boy to rub my feet and inhale my scent through my socks...as I step on his face.

-Goddess Lotus

1/22/15

A female led relationship online is very possibly. I've successfully experienced at least 3 within my active lifestyle online. I've been in complete control of a boy's finances, his life choices, his sexual choices.. It was his choice to offer everything to me. His trust to offer it all.. That power play was enlightening.

I have a boy, where he continually offers as much of himself as he can. He is married, so it is not the complete control we both seek. Although choosing if he works with underwear, what underwear, if he can wear my "collar" my little ring around his little cock for the day... Wear my name on his skin, my mark. Our power play is different.

I always ask... why me? How can I make your life better? How can you make mine better?

I want real connections, real submission. I seek to reach within you, and mold you into my slave.



Can you handle that, little boy...?

Think you....can?

-Goddess Lotus

"...C'mere.."

*Pats her thigh*

"C'mere little boy, c'mere. Are you going to be a good little bitch for Goddess?"

-Goddess Lotus

F.Z.

2 lbs to go until I hit my 250 mark.

My college courses started and its all blah blah, not to mention the training I attend for my job. I'm trying not to feel.. like I cant finish what I've started. I can and will thats for damn sure.

Ive come across some boys that seem to think my requirements are unreasonable, but that I'm still a pretty good person. I'm just not the person that want to serve, or worship.

Friend Zoned.

I havent decided if I should take it as a compliment or an insult. I enjoy being friends with the slut's I own. I enjoy talking for hours, with an occasional power play. I enjoy knowing that the boy is there for MY pleasure and company, and that we both agree I am one amazing fucking woman.

After youve basically said I'm awesome, but that you simply can not fulfill my requirements:

Gifting is required. I am not a prodomme. I am not a findomme. I am a Goddess. You want to buy my coffee for that day? A pedicure? Pay for my night out? Or even just send a little surprise to make me feel like a Black Queen?

That is a choice, a power play.. You offering a bit of yourself to me. Is it unreasonable to make it required? No. I expect it from you. Is it the guiding basis of my Domination? lolol. No.

The power play - that moment you decide youre inferior, pathetic, weak, and exist to improve my life.. Exist to make my life better in any possible way you can. That moment you decide to raise me above all the others, to worship, adore, and serve. I require that in your service to me.

I require constant communication. I understand, youre married.. have a GF, different time zone, etc. Life is busy, full of random moments, and full of small moments where you send a quick message. Where you think of Me, the woman who controls your pleasure, and know even invades your mind.. I seek a deep, personal level of control. I want to get to know a man, own a man, and destroy him. To build him back up into the image, into the slave that I want.

So... when you tell me, you find my requirements unreasonable.. that I'm still pretty cool, but I dont feel.. right to serve.. I think it is an insult.

Obviously you havent read far enough, or took the moment to sit and think. Youre scared, because I require.. What I desire from you? It will mean something. Afraid that you will find your true self while in my care.

I'm rambling, but only because that stupid youre cool, but lets be friends shit happened again. Bitch - I dont want to just be your friend. I want to own, humiliate, corrupt, tease, fuck... I want you as property.

Hopefully that made some sense, if not? Oh well.

-Goddess Lotus

Goals

I have some new years resolutions. To lose about 70 lbs by December - though I'll be happy with at least 50.

Well, thats really it! I'm in school, I'm saving for my wedding, I love my job.. I love the two sluts that are serving me well.

I'm working towards a better me. I want to be better.

Hopefully, some sluts reading this find that urge, and seek out the woman that will help them become the better slut.

-Goddess Lotus

2015!!!!!

Its a new year, and I am feeling great. I have two amazing slaves, an amazing fiance, and a will power to lose some weight this year.

Dont worry, I'll try to keep my ass ever so delicious.

I've slacked on my blog some. It happens. So much has happened, it really isnt sensible to try and throw it all in a post. 

Ill keep you posted on the future, and hopefully I will reach a sub out there.

-Goddess Lotus