F.Z.

2 lbs to go until I hit my 250 mark.

My college courses started and its all blah blah, not to mention the training I attend for my job. I'm trying not to feel.. like I cant finish what I've started. I can and will thats for damn sure.

Ive come across some boys that seem to think my requirements are unreasonable, but that I'm still a pretty good person. I'm just not the person that want to serve, or worship.

Friend Zoned.

I havent decided if I should take it as a compliment or an insult. I enjoy being friends with the slut's I own. I enjoy talking for hours, with an occasional power play. I enjoy knowing that the boy is there for MY pleasure and company, and that we both agree I am one amazing fucking woman.

After youve basically said I'm awesome, but that you simply can not fulfill my requirements:

Gifting is required. I am not a prodomme. I am not a findomme. I am a Goddess. You want to buy my coffee for that day? A pedicure? Pay for my night out? Or even just send a little surprise to make me feel like a Black Queen?

That is a choice, a power play.. You offering a bit of yourself to me. Is it unreasonable to make it required? No. I expect it from you. Is it the guiding basis of my Domination? lolol. No.

The power play - that moment you decide youre inferior, pathetic, weak, and exist to improve my life.. Exist to make my life better in any possible way you can. That moment you decide to raise me above all the others, to worship, adore, and serve. I require that in your service to me.

I require constant communication. I understand, youre married.. have a GF, different time zone, etc. Life is busy, full of random moments, and full of small moments where you send a quick message. Where you think of Me, the woman who controls your pleasure, and know even invades your mind.. I seek a deep, personal level of control. I want to get to know a man, own a man, and destroy him. To build him back up into the image, into the slave that I want.

So... when you tell me, you find my requirements unreasonable.. that I'm still pretty cool, but I dont feel.. right to serve.. I think it is an insult.

Obviously you havent read far enough, or took the moment to sit and think. Youre scared, because I require.. What I desire from you? It will mean something. Afraid that you will find your true self while in my care.

I'm rambling, but only because that stupid youre cool, but lets be friends shit happened again. Bitch - I dont want to just be your friend. I want to own, humiliate, corrupt, tease, fuck... I want you as property.

Hopefully that made some sense, if not? Oh well.

-Goddess Lotus