Did it again...

I let a whole month go by without any posts! I have to stop doing that. Well, my birthday is Nov 21st, and as of right now I own 2 wonderful slaves. I own one online and in real life.

I'm not engaged, I failed one of my classes - and I'm currently living with my mother.

I should be sad and depressed, especially since I gained back 10 of the 20 pounds I lost this year.

Im not.

Im.... excited. My lifeet is opening up with experiences I would have never imagined. I have two white boys that love, worship, and cherish me.

I'm incredibly lucky to have two bit he's give up their money, theit manhood, anything I want... to make my life better.

That trust, bond, and complete power exchange is everything I've always wanted.

I'm very happy.

If you're interested in offeering a birthday gift, you may send an American amazon gift card to the email kamala_nfe@yahoo.com

I'll be 26 this year. I'm loving my life thus far, the ups and the downs.

-Lotus

Mini Vacay

I have a mini vacation coming up Wednesday and Thursday. I'm taking a short trip to Universal Studios. I am so excited! I actually havent had a trip of this nature in my adult life.

I am currently seeing a white submissive boy, and its a real time relationship. Such a different experience, to place my hands on a boy.

This sub slut, Francis, is completely okay with my online domination and is even interested in a possible open relationship.

I love the slaves that are still with me - my little boy, my little bitch in the uk, and white toilet slave.

I look forward to sharing images and more of my life with anyone reading.

-Goddess Lotus

Update

I am alive.

More information soon.

Miss updating all the worthless, white worms that seem to hide in the shadows of my life.

-Goddess Lotus

Single

I left my fiance on Friday.

I'm single.

Free.

Can live the lifestyle and be happy.

Sad yet glad.

-Goddess Lotus

SPRI

Classes start tomorrow. I'm taking 4 and totally stoked. It'll be interesting trying to balance school, work, weight loss, and destroying white men.

I'm sure I can handle it.

For those that are just finding my blog and reading all about me - I require two things to serve me.

1. Constant Communication
2. Gifting


These are make it or break it requirements. Once we get past the initial getting to know one another, I will require them. To each their own if youre not interested - to be honest, youre probably not worth my time.

I've two devoted sluts - and a possible third. This little fart, the third, has come to me more than once begging to be mine. Let's see if he can stick around and worship me and devote himself to me fully.

I will certainly do my best at keeping this blog updated.

I need new nicknames for my sluts so that its easier to mention them. lol.

-Goddess Lotus

3 Miles

I wanted to attempt 3 miles tonight, but an ugly thunderstorm ruined my chances. So, I stripped and played some world of warcraft.

My friday evenings are so uneventful.

-Goddess Lotus

I dont sweat - I sparkle!!

Well, it's been some time since I've sat down and gave a proper update. My vacation in July was relaxing and went very well. I didnt really go anywhere, but I wasnt at work! lol. I've been busy being active and running and enjoying the time spent with my two sluts, kitten and the boy from across the pond.

Lord Stormageddon overlooking the Florida sun.

So far, windows 10 seems great!

This is one of the trails I run.

I've been playing a ton of World of Warcraft! Yes, girls do play and half of the time like this!

New additions to the back of my car.

Images from my vacation. We managed to get at least our feet in the water!

Well, that about sums up the past. I've also lost 20 lbs, and I am currently 236 lbs from the 258 lbs I weighed when I started my weight loss goals earlier this year. I've also dropped 2 pant sizes from a 22 to a 16 since then.

School starts soon, and I'll be taking 4 classes towards my degree. I'm a little worried and stressed, but I know I'll get through it. A full time teacher, online domme, wight loss program, family, and friends.. I'm a busy gal so to speak. 

I love being able to share my life with my slaves and more importantly the life I've created with my slaves, to the world. Kitten, formerly known as my little boy has basically transformed his life around me. We never miss a day of speaking, and at some times we both get so busy I forget to let him cum. 

;P

Even though life pulls away from one another, we always end up right beside each other. He knows what I want before I tell him, and I love to train him and shape him to be the perfect slave. Finally found a slave I TRUST and I know he wont disappear, or give up, or run away. I've known him 6 months and it feels like a lifetime.

My newest boy is a bit shy when it comes to the internet, so I've been asked not to post images of him here. I love sharing the updates on my pets, so I'll have to be creative to find a way to share his submission to me. This little bitch is probably the most coolest cat around. He's so calm, cool, and collected. We can sit and chat for hours, much like kitten and myself. Not only that, but I effect him just by being myself. To see his reactions towards me.. To hear that pleasure in his voice, to know that he is suffering for my pleasure? It's liberating as well as intense. I love the power over him, even though it is a rather small influence.

Trust takes time to build then test. I've told him I seek long term and a total power exchange. I want to control every single fucking thing I can over my pet's life. What you eat, wear, if you need to go to the rest room, if you want a beer, if you can cum... The list goes on and on.

Time will tell if my new found partnership with the little boy continues to grow and prosper. We're both hoping for a yes, but we both know sometimes things just dont work out.

Well, thats enough for now I'm thinking. lol. Here's to next time.

Also, if youre thinking I dont post enough images - youre a lucky little fucker to even see me. My boys receive most of my images, videos, and voice messages. I choose what to post here, being generous enough to share my life. 

Youre welcome.

-Goddess Lotus

Update Soon!

I'm trying my hardest to keep it updated here. I may have to start including my little boy in the process. Give him some tasks so he can write and we can share this blog.

There's one boy thats new, always on the other side of the pond. I seem to attract those pets.

I look forward to sharing my D/s life and personal life with the world!

-Goddess Lotus

Vacation!

I start my week vacation after today. So excited to finally relax and enjoy my slut.

There seems to be a white boy that has come crawling back after a year or so. I told him time will rebuild the trust.

I look forward to posting more snd enjoying life.

The pic is of me in my classroom, counting down the hours till I leave!

-Goddess Lotus

Ownership and Submission

What do these things mean to you?

To me, its an incredible bond between a person and another. It requires communication, trust, and honesty.

I seek a total power exchange between a weak, inferior, white male. I wish to provide ownership, guidance, dominance, and love.

I seek the submission of this white male, who puts his all into little old me.

I've found such a connection with my little boy. We know what we want, and we're not interested in playing any games. We want a long term relationship, where I hold all the power. Where he is caged and bound under my command, and subject to my will.

This is an experience of a lifetime, to finally give myself to another as much has he wishes to give himself over to me. He accepts my strange qualities, and human mishaps. I accept that he is just as human, and real as I am.

I think thats whats wrong with online D/s. So many people are fake and think the person on the other end is just as fake.

I am very, very, very real. So is my ownership - and his submission.

                                 I am his world. His Mommy. His Domme. His friend. His lover.


                                                                      He is MINE.
                      -Goddess Lotus

So behind!

My life has been so busy this past month! Training a real slave takes time and attention to detail. It takes concentration and skill as well.

Little boy and I have been very, very, very busy discovering one another.

I shall do my best to remain active and share our story with the rest of the world.

Oh, and I've lost 15 lbs!
-Goddess Lotus

And...

Then there was one.

My Lil boy remains faithful.

Fuzzy asked for release today.

Online domination is rather difficult to maintain when of the parties is no longer interested. Communication and honesty are needed for a power exchange to occur.

Thank you, Lil boy for remaining mine and wanting me as much as I want you.

Love you, bitch.

-Goddess Lotus

How To Deal With Punisment

This journal prompt was posed to my lil boy. We send prompts and things via dropbox, so I simply took a screenshot on my comp.

How do you deal with punishment from your owner?

-Goddess Lotus

Branded

I love to degrade my property. I think being branded is a wonderful way for a slave to remember his place. My sluts went to work with these words on their chest. All day they played at being real men, working hard, and smiling with co workers. Just underneath their attire... the real truth was written. How deep does that go?

Theyre hidden, their true self is hidden to those, but always just one layer away.

Except with Me - You cant hide from Me.

I gave my sluts the opportunity to mark themselves for my pleasure. Love good white boys that aim to please.

Fuzzy

My lil boy

Wanting desperately to be between My thighs....

<3 Goddess Lotus

Surrender or be Conquered?

I recently asked my little boy, if he wanted to be conquered or to surrender to me. Here is his response.

Mommy asked me to write about whether i would rather surrender or be conquered? And why?

I believe the answer is a combination of the two, as there must be some connection and willingness to surrender ones freedom in the first place.  Without that connection and desire to be owned, the whole process of ownership and submission can come off as a game making the entire act a joke and a total turn off.

My surrendering to Mommy did not start as total surrender but rather began with a desire to serve and submit to Her.  I immediately felt something and knew that She was the Domme I had to kneel before. And commit myself to.

Little by little Mommy, sensing and feeling my devotion, started to take control and kept whittling away at me, until She conquered me and got my total devotion and complete submission.

The fact that it was a gradual power exchange made it all the more real and natural, it was something that I HAD to do, no rather needed to do.  I am now at the point where I am begging Her to take more and more control.  In a sense my surrendering led to my being conquered.

Had I not had a willingness to surrender to Her, I do not know if I would have been able to be conquered by Her.

I have willingly turned over two credit cards and my banking information, as well as placed Her collar in the form of a metal cock ring around what is now Her cock.

So my being conquered started with a willingness to surrender and has grown into something so special and real that I can’t imagine my life without Her.

This is the same little boy I've registered as mine. The same little boy who now wears a cock ring 24/7 to represent his submission and slavery to me. The same boy that offers himself willingly and freely to me. We live very far from one another. There are no real ties holding us together - yet, we remain one. He is the first I've ever trusted with more than my real name, but my location, my family - he is the first of many. The first I've experienced bondage with - he wrapped himself nicely like a present for me.

I hope to discover many firsts with this sweet little slut. It's such a deep power exchange when the sub trusts fully. 

He was at work when the cock ring arrived.

I told him to go to the bathroom and put it on.

I love a good boy that listens.

EXTERMINATE! Geek randomness is my life.

My present - One of the most erotic orgasms I've seen from a boy yet.

Always sunny in Florida..

Kiss my feet...

Keep reading, more to come on Fuzzy in the next post. He's also been a good little boy.

-Goddess Lotus

Myfitnesspal

If you want to keep up to date with my fitness goals, you can download the app myfitnesspal and search for the username GoddessLotus.

I look forward to seeing any boys or Ladies that are also trying to keep up with their fitness goals for this year.

If you would like to offer a gift for future workout gear, you may do so by sending an American amazon.com giftcard to the email kamala_nfe@yahoo.com


-Goddess Lotus

4-2-15 (....Good things comes to those...)

Good morning, Ladies and worms. I just finished a 3 and half mile walk and now settling for some homework.

I recently had a boy approach me, and ask if he could serve me. My blog is the only place were my email and instant messenger services are listed. That means - I expect you to at least read through some of the previous blogs. It's disrespectful not to, and it shows a lack of effort on your part. Why contact me and ask me for my time, when you havent even taken the time to educate yourself on my needs and expectations?


I'm a real person. I dont pretend to be a hard bitch, leather clad, dominatrix. That's not my style. I'm down to earth, geeky, and I tend to care for my property. I'm a loving domme, with a penchant for making my property suffer via chastity.

I also ramble and skip subjects and some how completely miss the point of everything when I post a new blog entry.

:P

In other words, what you see is what you get with me. I currently own two boys, fuzzy and little boy. I'm building a power exchange that will last a life time. Not a week, or a month or two, not even a year or two.

I want to own a man for life. I want to be his solace and happiness. I am engaged, so married men do not hinder me.

I dont want to be your wife, sister, or daughter. I'm your owner, or in lil boy's case, his Mommy. :P <3
Fuzzy has been amazing. He has attempted to try and keep more in contact, and communication open. The more we chat, the more exciting and fun ideas I can come up with to humiliate and tease him further.

Lil boy - He helped me get some work out fear and proper shoes for my walking. Not only that, but almost every time he can, he encourages me to keep moving forward with my goals. <3

Workout gear!

Local lake - Great spot for a Goddess to walk and free her mind

I am starting to love sunglasses. Like LOVE them.

Dont you wish you where here with me?

Lick, suckle, and kiss.... 

What comes to your mind when you see me?

I had a rough couple of weeks, but I am happy to have the boys in my life that love me. I love them. I want to get more active with my images and postings here. Share my happiness with the world!

-Goddess Lotus

End of March - Addicted

So much has happened this month.

Doofus decided to leave.

I am an online Domme. I youre a frequent reader of my blog life, then you'll know I'm no stranger to a sub walking away. It's almost like the unspoken rule of online domination, they always leave.

It hurt, and I mourned the loss of a connection I put my all into.

Then I pulled on my panties like a big girl, and began to focus on the white slave's that still remain loyal.

Fuzzy's life situation has changed, which limits his privacy nowadays. I've given him the out, because the constant communication we had in the beginning has now dwindled to a thing of the past.

He refused. He chose me. Said he loved being my property - and that he'd rather work for what we have. That is what I seek. A deep rooted connection and a need for me in his life. Thank you for being mine fuzzy. You fill apart of me, and I hope I do the same for you. Even though we spend less time together, I know what we share is real. That feeling helpless and weak comes naturally to you in my presence.

There's my new boy. Well, he is no longer new. He is.. a missing puzzle piece in my life. From the second day we met, we've been able to sit and chat for hours. I think thats what most online Dommes miss and most subs dont quite understand - communication. Without being able to talk to one another, what do you have left? Sex? Money? His nickname is my little boy.

Little boy and I chat every day. With him, I explore the Mommy Domme elements and he serves as my little boy. It is similar to the Daddy Dom and babygirl elements if you are familiar with that. He is twice my age. He is an older white, business man - and he loves to beg a young, black woman...for any privilege I allow. Our dynamic is new, growing, and shaping into something beautiful. He revels in every privilege of pleasure I allow.. Even touching himself at work for my pleasure. Becoming a naughty, dirty, little bitch while his coworkers are ignorant of his true self.

He even enjoys being DENIED - so that I can have what I want. <3

I will post more.. on Fuzzy and little boy. I will start to do journals with my boys, and will post what they write here for all to see.

Now onto me! I've lost 11 lbs, and midterms are over! Woohoo!! I'm sexy. Smart. Yadda.. Yadda. Nothing has really changed with me - I suppose my understanding of my submissives needs and desires.

I'm starting to ramble on and on. Basically - I'm happy. Happier than I've ever been. It's not about money or gifts. Its not about sex and orgasms. It's about commitment, honesty, loyalty and most of all? Trust. My current boys offer all of that to me and more. I want to break them, own them, reduce grown men into whimpering little boys dependent on me. 

My fiance is amazing - but he isnt my bitch. I crave dominance over a man. Fuzzy and little boy, you give me what I need. 

I am addicted to power and control.

-Goddess Lotus

Hmmm

I couldve sworn I made a post since March 5th. I have no idea what the fuck happened to it.

March 2015 - Mid Terms

Midterms suck.

That is all. Studying hard.


I've been having a wonderful new year. My 3 subs are serving me well. There's something about controlling someone, not just their actions. But controlling their thoughts and emotions.. That completes me.

My white boy, the new boy. He is amazing. He understands me for me and how goofy I can be, yet sensual, and dominating. I love not having to pretend to be anything Im not.

Fuzzy is loyal and deeply sensual. I havent spent much time with him due to my mid terms, and work, and marital issues. But life will always come first - then ME.

Doofus. I almost let him go, simply because he seem uninterested. I have no issues admitting that I crave attention. I love it, being the center of your world. And when our constant communication almost shrivels up and dies, I get worried. Though, luckily for him? He broke down..expressed his feelings, and we moved forward.

I have a Goddess complex, where I want to be important, and matter to my submissives. I want to guide, train, and love my property. I seek deep, unyielding, and dark new depths. I want long term and a complete power exchange.

So far? I think I've hit the jack pot.

School is going great. I will admit, February I ate out often. This month, I sticking to two times a week. I am working out and sticking to my goals.

I love my submissives. I love myself. I ask that anyone reading this, take a chance. Approach that Domme youre afraid of, or just do something you never wouldve thought you could do.

I love being a Domme. I love controlling white men. I love being superior and amazing.

Smile and live life.

-Goddess Lotus

XoXo

For some reason, I thought I had made a post in February. So much has happened these last few weeks. School is going great and so is my fitness plan. I am sticking to my goals, and hopefully will see progress in the future. That and my ass looks great in my work out pants!

I've been spoiled and worshiped by my 3 slaves. Doofus is still around, and so is fuzzy wuzzy. I met my newest pet within secondlife and it blossomed naturally and easily into an ownership. He has offered himself to me willingly and openly, and within his submission we both will grow. Talking to my little white boy is one of the high lights of my day, to any of them really. <3

I dont pretend to be anyone else, or some strict leather domme, or some evil cruel mistress. I'm a geek, a preschool teacher, and I love to cook! The wanting to corrupt, tease, and fuck you senseless part of me is only a small part.

I love when I meet a submissive and we simply click; he gets me and I get him. I believe that is what I found within my newest white boy. I do not have a nickname for him, besides old man. Each white slave that approaches me offers me something different in our female led relationship.. Doofus offers me complete control. Fuzzy wuzzy is one sexual beast, chastity keeping him dripping and horny enough to fuck walls... And now, my newest pet. He gives me that constant communication, all day long.. that urge, that desire to tie him tightly, bound and gagged.. (possible through the medium in which we met.)

What I'm trying to say is that I am blessed. Those of you who have continually read my blog know Mina, Steff, Lion.. and so many others that have come into my life and left. Its sad to lose a sub, after bonding and creating a D/s relationship.. it hurts. It's extremely difficult to have what I want through online.

I want deep, dark, sticky.. I want to become an addiction for you, I want to be the reason your cock hardens.. and the ache in your balls for not being allowed to cum. I want to chat all day, when possible, hear about your ups and downs. I want a friendship and your submission. I want your devotion and your loyalty. I want to be your Goddess. Your owner. I want complete control.. or as much as possible over your life.

I ramble - often, and I could go on and on. It's Valentine's day tomorrow. My pets have all given generously - and most importantly? It was their choice. Thank you, mine for all that you have done to make my life better. I certainly hope I brighten your days just as you do mine,

If you would like to offer a valentine gift, you may do so via an American Amazon giftcard to the email kamala_nfe@yahoo.com

Gifting is a power exchange, it is a decision from the sub to offer a way to make my life better. There are those that do not agree, and to each their own. I seek subs that have taken the time to read and get to know me, and understand me - and most all want to serve me.

Have a good one.

-Goddess Lotus
xoxo

Beautiful

I live in a beautiful state, Florida. Sometimes, I have to remember that my property.. does not experience the seasons like I do. I have experienced snow once in my life, and that was about 17 years ago.

I went for a walk yesterday, and this was my view...

It was calming and relaxing. The only thing missing? A boy to rub my feet and inhale my scent through my socks...as I step on his face.

-Goddess Lotus

1/22/15

A female led relationship online is very possibly. I've successfully experienced at least 3 within my active lifestyle online. I've been in complete control of a boy's finances, his life choices, his sexual choices.. It was his choice to offer everything to me. His trust to offer it all.. That power play was enlightening.

I have a boy, where he continually offers as much of himself as he can. He is married, so it is not the complete control we both seek. Although choosing if he works with underwear, what underwear, if he can wear my "collar" my little ring around his little cock for the day... Wear my name on his skin, my mark. Our power play is different.

I always ask... why me? How can I make your life better? How can you make mine better?

I want real connections, real submission. I seek to reach within you, and mold you into my slave.



Can you handle that, little boy...?

Think you....can?

-Goddess Lotus

"...C'mere.."

*Pats her thigh*

"C'mere little boy, c'mere. Are you going to be a good little bitch for Goddess?"

-Goddess Lotus

F.Z.

2 lbs to go until I hit my 250 mark.

My college courses started and its all blah blah, not to mention the training I attend for my job. I'm trying not to feel.. like I cant finish what I've started. I can and will thats for damn sure.

Ive come across some boys that seem to think my requirements are unreasonable, but that I'm still a pretty good person. I'm just not the person that want to serve, or worship.

Friend Zoned.

I havent decided if I should take it as a compliment or an insult. I enjoy being friends with the slut's I own. I enjoy talking for hours, with an occasional power play. I enjoy knowing that the boy is there for MY pleasure and company, and that we both agree I am one amazing fucking woman.

After youve basically said I'm awesome, but that you simply can not fulfill my requirements:

Gifting is required. I am not a prodomme. I am not a findomme. I am a Goddess. You want to buy my coffee for that day? A pedicure? Pay for my night out? Or even just send a little surprise to make me feel like a Black Queen?

That is a choice, a power play.. You offering a bit of yourself to me. Is it unreasonable to make it required? No. I expect it from you. Is it the guiding basis of my Domination? lolol. No.

The power play - that moment you decide youre inferior, pathetic, weak, and exist to improve my life.. Exist to make my life better in any possible way you can. That moment you decide to raise me above all the others, to worship, adore, and serve. I require that in your service to me.

I require constant communication. I understand, youre married.. have a GF, different time zone, etc. Life is busy, full of random moments, and full of small moments where you send a quick message. Where you think of Me, the woman who controls your pleasure, and know even invades your mind.. I seek a deep, personal level of control. I want to get to know a man, own a man, and destroy him. To build him back up into the image, into the slave that I want.

So... when you tell me, you find my requirements unreasonable.. that I'm still pretty cool, but I dont feel.. right to serve.. I think it is an insult.

Obviously you havent read far enough, or took the moment to sit and think. Youre scared, because I require.. What I desire from you? It will mean something. Afraid that you will find your true self while in my care.

I'm rambling, but only because that stupid youre cool, but lets be friends shit happened again. Bitch - I dont want to just be your friend. I want to own, humiliate, corrupt, tease, fuck... I want you as property.

Hopefully that made some sense, if not? Oh well.

-Goddess Lotus

Goals

I have some new years resolutions. To lose about 70 lbs by December - though I'll be happy with at least 50.

Well, thats really it! I'm in school, I'm saving for my wedding, I love my job.. I love the two sluts that are serving me well.

I'm working towards a better me. I want to be better.

Hopefully, some sluts reading this find that urge, and seek out the woman that will help them become the better slut.

-Goddess Lotus

2015!!!!!

Its a new year, and I am feeling great. I have two amazing slaves, an amazing fiance, and a will power to lose some weight this year.

Dont worry, I'll try to keep my ass ever so delicious.

I've slacked on my blog some. It happens. So much has happened, it really isnt sensible to try and throw it all in a post. 

Ill keep you posted on the future, and hopefully I will reach a sub out there.

-Goddess Lotus