Day 24

Pet Steff's balls are aching....




Christmas post coming soon.

-Lotus

Pretty in Pink

Mina, my piggy girl, finally went and purchased his panties to match his Goddess! Such a pathetic, weak, white bitch... He waited so long, and was unable to find the same styles. Well, he found a couple, and then decided on a couple of others.

He at least found three matching pairs.

The sissy slut loves to feel 'pretty', especially in pink.. My own little faggot toilet.

And of course, little nasty girl gets to wear his pair.. He will NEVER, NEVER appear as such perfection as mine.

Pretty in pink, the pig's fat white ass...

-The Lotus

Trained, Owned, Completely

The title says it all - need I say more?

My pet steff...

-The Lotus

Victoria Secret Panties Continued...

Here are the styles I've chosen...

The store didnt have exactly what I'd chosen online. However still was able to find some lovely seasonal designs.

And because its fucking cold in Florida right now, I chose these lovely ones right here...

Youre welcome... Mina still hasnt purchased his set. Tsk tsk.

-The Lotus

Full and aching...

Steff has been in chastity for..9 days now. The longest we've ever gone. However, since his life arrangements are a tad difficult, it is all a mental chastity. There is no cage covering his little dick. There is no physical lock, no key for me to send him to be allowed to touch..

He simply, by force of will, refuses to stroke or cum at my command.

And even though those balls are aching and full, he is still loving it.. Love the suffering for his Owner's pleasure.

-Lotus

Victoria's Secret, A shopping trip

A little shit girl, Mina my piggy, wanted to worship her Goddess as well as offer a Christmas gift early.

So from there, we decided on some styles... and I was originally heading to the online check out to purchase panties..

Though, I took a trip to my local VS and saw that there was a special sale happening in store.

50 percent off was a much better deal! So, with that, I made out like a bandit with 5 panties for 23 bucks.

So with Mina's tribute and gift, was able to get some lovely pairs... He will have to wait to see just what styles.. That will be in the next post.

Mina's Tribute

And the results... Will post images of the styles I chose soon.

I love shopping with my pets, and making sure they know I appreciate everything.

The real fun will come when Mina goes to get his own panties... We'll have matching pairs, except I'm the angel.. and he will be the naughty, nasty, piggy trying to imitate Goddess.

-Lotus

Happy Saturday!

Hope everyone has a wonderful day.  Remember, make sure your Goddess knows you love her!

Little update!

My antlers look fabulous!

And my mouse finally arrived! Gave me a little trouble at first, but working perfectly! Thank you, my little Steff.

<3 Lotus

Taking care of Goddess

My desktop mouse gets a lot of use. I game, I chat, and I use my desktop at least for 4 hours a day. Finally, my mouse gave up the ghost and started acting silly.

I've had Steff save since the beginning of December for My Christmas gift, and the good boy will send his monthly tribute on the 26th. Since then, he has purchased two items that are not included in My gift or tribute. Lovely antlers for my car and a new computer mouse.

Picture soon of the antlers on the car!

Just in case some were wondering, the rodent is in reference to him and the computer mouse. <3

My mouse should arrive Friday. He purchased these items because they please ME. Not because of payment or anything like that. In fact, the only thing I require payment of from any of my subs? Is a cum tax...

Something about that little tax that gives me a thrill. Knowing, that they know, they'll have to pay up for their pleasure... It's a wonderful feeling.

This Friday, my little girl, Mina will be sending her Christmas gift and little does she know it... I have a surprise for her.

When pets take care of their Owner and vice versa, everyone is happily settled in their roles.

-Lotus

Have a Wonderful Wednesday!

It's a wonderful thought... knowing you'll have someone to worship and adore you forever... 

Pleases me greatly to think of such...a relationship.

Consuming a boy, or boys to the point of no return...

Lost eternally to Me...

My pets know who they are... Steff, Mina, and Bethany.. <3 Eternally under my spell.

Kk came through

Good boy.

Begging to serve...

This little fool has been following me now for almost an entire month - wanting to serve. I've given him the task of sending me a journal entry on why he wishes to serve, and what his ideal D/s relationship will be.

Let's see if he can man up and send it by the end of the tonight..

-Lotus

Locked and Loved

Last night, my little shit slave, Mina professed her love for me, and how she would never leave me. Clearly, she stated how in all the Domme's she has been with - none even came close to me. So we began to shop for rl collars for her.

Pink, for sure.

And with a lovely little tag. Toilet Bitch came to mind as a wonderful little tag...
With Pet Toilet coming close second.

The tag

The Collar

We havent purchased it yet, but will in the new year. Such a wonderful feeling to have a slut profess devotion, adoration, and loyalty... Especially after losing a boy that held such promise.

Thank you my Mina, for being my little shit slave.

-Lotus

6 days less than a month..

Chastity is a wonderful little tool to control a pet. I had planned on a full month of chastity for my 'pet' steff, though it never did pan out that way. Before I ventured into this little fetish, I researched tons on how it would effect the sub. Rarely did it have any insight on how the Domme would also be affected.

I'm one of the women that enjoy seeing and controlling a man's orgasm. The denial is a great way to build a strong connection, a dependent connection of pleasure to one's owner. However, denying him his release - also denied me my own pleasure in seeing that moment of utter pleasure... His knowing he came on my command, to me.

Sure, the denial, his aching balls, his need and desire to orgasm all please me as well. Here are my pet's thoughts to his being allowed to cum after only 6 days.

""
journal Entry
steff sinner
To Me
Dec 8 at 11:31 PM
Good morning Goddess,

Well this Journal entry is a little different than i was expecting it to be :)  i thought it was going to be about what it was like to still not have cum into my second week of chastity. Instead i get to try and explain how i felt when You let me cum.

It was, needless to say, incredible!  This sounds like hyperbole, but hand on heart, cumming for You, has been more.. intense, and feels so much better than ever before Goddess!  The honest truth is, i *still* don't know if i wanted You to say 'cum' or 'stop' although it was a total shock when You decided i should cum.

i was definitely aching, and knowing it was only 6 days… i had no idea what i'd be like after a month.  Heck, i didn't know if i was going to be able to *walk* at the end of the month.

Now of course, it's a week of no touching at all.. and already it's hard.  i know it's probably my imagination, but i feel like my balls are still bigger than they used to be.  Although You know they were completely empty.. as You saw *blush*, it still feels like they've grown. already they've begun to ache.. and it's only been a day and a half,

i have to admit, i think this week is going to be tough. no touching at all.  but.. i thank You for that Goddess.  i love being able to please You, to obey.  to be good for You.

Hope You have a fantastic rest, very much looking forward to seeing You,
pet

"""""

So, we will go alow once again, and work up to that month.. Still, the pleasure is in him NOT knowing when he will actually get to orgasm...

-Lotus

Second times the charm

Good bye, Joe.

Recent tributes - Worshipping the Lotus Goddess

There were some towards the end of Nov, I simply do not feel like posting.

We'll start with December 2013!

One month

Can you say a month of chastity?

Steff sure can. December 1st started Steff's month of chastity for me... Let's hope that little white bitch can keep it up. Shall we?

Happy Friday everyone! I've finally done an introduction on my main submissives. It took me a at least a week to figure out what to say and what to do. Now I can certainly focus on the most important - and well, we all know that to be me!

Expect new images - and updates soon!

Last but not least - Pet

It seems most of my adventures stem from meeting people I'd never assume would be interested. Such was the case with one particular little girl within second life. Her name - Steff. I've been a member of the virtual world of SL for a long time, and always within the femdom communities. You can almost...sniff out the boys that play the girls. I dont mind a guy playing as a gal for one second, in fact, I enjoy it.

So when I asked Steff if she were a real girl, and he replied with a no? I was quite overjoyed. Though the moment he said he had little interest in financial domination? My heart sank.

I do not enjoy forcing my kink on others, though I do enjoy educating. We started chatting... And he started melting. There comes a turning point in any conversation, where the dynamic of Domme and sub are most certainly recognized. The conversation kept going, and the roles were put in place - and have never faltered since.

There are times in knowing a person - where the roles... simply arent recognized. No such case with this little pet.

In the short time I've known the boy - we've grown stronger, and have expressed our fantasies and thoughts of one another - which are one and the same.

He is the first boy I've ever decided to share any contact information with - other than an email. Considering his birthday is the day before mine, I planned a little gift.

I decided to purchase a lock for him. He would get it, and place it on his key ring. Something he used every day - and as a reminder of his service and submission to me. 

Then he would mail me the keys.

He received his lock and promptly attached to the keys. A day or two, he sent off my keys. This of course was the first time I've ever sent a sub my address.

The trust I felt with him? Feel with him? Is still there - and will only go deeper as time permits.

The keys arrived.

Needless to say, still so much to explore and so much to conquer with this pet and my others. I look forward to writing about each and every single one of them. 

Bethany - The one and only

The one and only -real- girl I've ever been interested in.... My first lesbian Domme/sub experience.


From off and on, to heated and cold - we can not stay away from one another. We gravitate, we love, and we enjoy one another. I've explored many of my darker fantasies with this little girl.

I could write so much here, and detail so much of how far along we have come since meeting one another a year ago in second life. But I will leave it open to write for the future... As that is what's in store for us. The future.

Mina - My little shit girl

It was a normal day within secondlife, and one day - a little girl dropped in on my home. It's a black domme financial sim, and most times people are lost. Though this girl - was deeply interested in scat, piss, and so many other kinks I had yet to explore.

And every moment with her, conversation, we delve deeper into... the less popular fetishes. I've learned to enjoy the humiliating factor a scat scene can involve, and a water sports scene. I've learned that sometimes to get a sub to a breaking point, you have to be nasty and creative.

I am quite pleased, and happy with the nasty little white girl that wandered in my life.

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August 2013 - Entering Findoms and finding Ctbb

I joined a neat little financial dominant site, findoms.com and began further exploration into my fetish/lifestyle. I had dabbled in it previously on a platform, Secondlife, though never on scale as findoms. I began posting images and blogs, and making a name for myself - meeting folks. And came across a boy, that seemed to match perfectly with my interests.

His name was ctbb.
Here was his first letter of adoration to me..

"""Hi Miss, my Goddess, my Queen, my everything.

I wanted to start by saying what a crazy few days it has been since you accepted me as your sub. I have loved every minute of it so far and I cant wait to see our relationship pan out over the long run. I love how nerdy and crazy you are, in a good way of course. You have really taken a shine to me, as I have to you which I have never experienced with another Domme before and I cant stress how much this means to me. I also love how qwerky you are, you are super cute, super sexy and your teasing sends me to another world. 

I also wanted to state how much your voxers mean, I love hearing your sexy ass accent as its super cute and tantalizing miss. I feel as though this connection is really above anything I have ever had, especially hearing your orgasmic voice via voxer, that night was a real initiation to be proud of as a D/S. I also cant wait to spend time with you on saturday, shopping and what not will be fantastic and im so excited. I also love the news you broke earlier, that you are off on monday, thats so awesome :D :D. 

I know this isnt much but its a start.

Yours truly,

Ctbb."""""

Everything seemed to be going well, and quite frankly amazing. Though, within the second week of our relationship blossoming? He began to struggle - either with me, or the level of attraction we both felt. Needless to say, it didnt last very long and it was over before it began.

Although it crashed and burned, ctbb certainly helped me discover what I want from a D/s relationship.

You know - Folks say write what you know. Right now? My knowing is mainly this ongoing search and rescue the site for my 'boy'. Yes, yes, Lotus is strange and weird, and only wishes for one or two little weaklings to serve her. Let's move on. 


I’ve posted what sort of relationship I’m looking for – but not what sort of partner, or at least the traits and such I’d enjoy from him. I’m looking for a man confident in his submission, one that understands that when with me? He will give up any control he thought he had, and give it up willingly. 
Now, duhhhhh – you say. 
But that isn’t as common as you’d think, to find that connection of such a powerful exchange between two person. It’s rare, fleeting, and definitely a thing to hold on to. 
Looking for a boy that has personality, not a robot slave to simply ‘yes, Miss’ me to death. I want a boy with his own thinking power, or where’s the fun in destroying his thoughts? I need a partner – a match. Now, don’t get me wrong, certainly not an equal. Though a challenge – chump change is simply that, chump change. 

((My cat is watching the words scroll across the screen as I type this. LOL)) 
 

I need someone with the same interests as mine. I am not in Domme mode 24/7. I don’t expect him to be pathetic and mewling in every moment we spend together. I want to chat, and simply enjoy the boy I choose to serve me. I have many interests that vary – and I’d hope for my boy to have the same. I love computers, building and working on them. I love cooking – learning new recipes. 
VIDEOGAMES. A large portion of my time when not on findoms? Is in a game. 
Reading , Movies, Roleplaying, Devising evil plans for corrupting and degrading white men… 

Etc, you get the point. Someone that we can simply talk about the latest updates in the genres and tasks that we share and enjoy. 
I could go on and on, but this is just a basic run down. Surely if a boy read this and thought…that’s me – I’d receive a message. 
And then that they say? Is history. 


Looking for a man that understands what he has to offer, whether it be cash, or excitement, or even giving me the passion to move forward in the worderfully delicious lifestyle. Seems, a little far fetched to me, like what I’m looking for isn’t real. The boy not be able to encompass all of these feats, but there will be some. Surely – my standards wont be pushed aside, or left dwindling to the wind. That’s right – standards. I know what I want. 

So his chapter came to a close, with much sadness - but now something to look forward to. A connection - which I've found, but on more that later....

-Goddess Lotus

Found Ya!

I've so much to write, so many stories to tell.. It's been a while since I made my first post, and more than likely - I forgot all about this blog. However, it's time to play catch up...

I'll start in August 2013, and then make my way all the way into December now... So much to post, and remember.

-Lotus